You say you dont understand why you put yourself through so much pain.  I dont understand it either...  You and I have been through many heartbreaks in the past.  I know how you feel.  Ive been hurt before.  But not anymore...  You say you're alone, but you're not.  I'm here, and I will always be here for you.  If I'm not with you, im alwayz one call away.  Thinking about the pain in the past will lead to nowhere.  What can you do about it?  Nothing... All you can do is concentrate on today and hope for a better tomorrow.  If I lived my mornings thinking about all the pain ive gone through,  I'd be miserable everyday.  But you know what?  I dont even think about it anymore.  It's cuz I have something else to think about.  Every morning, my alarm goes off, and I wake up.  I put a smile on my face, cuz i know im gonna see you in an hour.  Ive been feelin dis since I started talkin to you, before we hooked up.  The excitement, the feeling inside... I still have it in me.  Sometimes I go home and fall on my bed, feeling like im fallin from heaven cuz i jus spent time w/ mai angel.  Next month... U will be my longest relationship ever.  It's weird, cuz it duznt feel that long to me.  People say I'll get tired of it, but they're wrong.  Y on earth would I want the greatest thing that ever happened to me go away?  You are my sunshine, my shining star, my angel...  You make me happy when im sad, you make me strong when i am weak, you make me complete...  I know you're going through a lot of confusion right now.  Even you think things are shaky right now, I just want you to know that I'm here, and that I'm always gonna be here.  I'm not going anywhere.  I promised you something and I'm gonna keep it.  Listen to your heart...  That's what I do.  I know it works.  Cuz it led me to you...

Holy shit, i know i havent been on here since sep.  Daym Myspace... Dats all i gotta say.  Ive been usin myspace since sep n I completely 4got bout mai xanga.  Im so sry.  Well... i bet u guys dont even go here anymore.  Iono why, but i jus went on here 2day to look at other people's xangas.  I also looked at mai past entries.  Its funny how time passes by so quickly.  Actually its a little too fast.  The last time I wrote wuz back in the beginning of september.  Now its almost the end of january.  In half a year, ill be in college.  Yikes!  Man... mai senior year is almost over.  I have to make the most of it.  So far, I think ive done just that.  Its been hella fun kickin it with theo n allie the past couple of months since I dont get to see them as often since we go 2 different schools.  Allie need his paking license.  Shit... He took driver's ed a year b4 me and i got mai license a year before he will, that's if he passes... Lol! of course he'll pass.  Everyone passes... eventually.  Anyway... I have also had a chance to spend a lot of time with Mel.  I know sometimes people think I spend too much time with her.  Its just that its mai senior year, and for those of you who dont know, she's a junior.  So when im in college, i wont be able to see her everyday.  Im gonna do mai very best to see her as much as possible.  Jus cuz im goin 2 college duznt mean im gonna break up w/ her.  Dis kinda situation happens to many couples.  Im not gonna let me bein in college keep me away from mai baby.  Im jus gonna have to deal with it.  Mel and I have been through thick n thin, and nuthin can stop us from bein w/ each other.  Daym, im gettin tired, so dats all fo now.  Peaceeezzzeee!!! Matt is back...

guess hoo? well matt doesnt update enough plus that catwoman dealie has been up there enough so i decided to make a few changes yay! hee hee i hope u guys like the new song [[usher ft alicia keyes - my boo]] and the new design initial d takashi brothers i tink its a big improvement to halle berry well i unno wut to really sai so uhhh hee hee bai